obsession

Eric just mentioned (and of course I didn't think about it at all until now, and now I can't quit thinking about it) that he wishes we would have had our photographer from Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep get a family photo of us. I don't know if she did or not........but now it seems it's the only thing I want. Seems lately that's all I do is want things I can't have.
Before I went to bed last night I looked through all the text messages I have on my phone.......from when I was in the hospital and Cayden was still with me, then I looked through all the photos on my phone of him. Pretty much cried myself to sleep and it feels like it's going to be a tough emotional day for me today.
They said there would be days like this.