I am starting this blog to help my heart heal and feel and deal.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Sweet Cayden, 5 weeks ago today you were born. 5 weeks ago tonight you were in the NICU hooked to too many tubes and wires, but you were alive my angel. 5 weeks ago right now I had such hope for you winning your battle. 5 weeks ago tonight I had no idea how much pain I would be in. 5 weeks from today I will miss you just as much as I do right now.
Go ahead and mention my child, The one that died, you know. Don't worry about hurting me further. The depth of my pain doesn't show. Don't worry about making me cry. I'm already crying inside. Help me to heal by releasing the tears that I try to hide. I'm hurt when you just keep silent, Pretending she didn't exist. I'd rather you mention my child, Knowing that she has been missed. You asked me how I was doing. I say "pretty good" or "fine". But healing is something ongoing I feel it will take a lifetime. ~ Elizabeth Dent ~
I am 40, married to Eric the most amazing man since '06 (although we have been together since '98. I have 2 step sons Devon 15 and Riley 12 and my amazingly wonderful son Murray 3 and my angel baby boy Cayden who slipped from my arms to Gods in August '09.